The Summer of Caitlin

This year has been...hard.

1. Pandemic & a lockdown - I have always been one who was prone to anxiety and depression so being stuck in the house and spending a lot of time by myself was a BIG and not smooth adjustment

2. Ectopic Pregnancy & loss - last May after over a year of infertility, I finally got pregnant! Unfortunately, 8 weeks along, I found out that it was ectopic and I had to terminate the pregnancy. That was a very large high, followed by a very low low. Mourning my little buddy was another hurdle I had to make it over this year.

3. The most stressful school year - This school year was a hot mess to say the least, virtual learning, hybrid learning, rules and plans changing every few days. Students weren't motivated, parents weren't supportive. I had to up my anxiety meds to help me make it through.

4. Borderline Tumor - to top it all off, last month I found out that what we thought was a cyst on my right ovary is a borderline tumor. I don't have any good ovarian tissue left on that side so I will be getting that whole ovary removed. So not only do I have PCOS, but now I'll only have one ovary to add to my infertility issues.

So I decided this was this was the Summer of Caitlin!

I dyed my hair a fun blue to remind me of my crazy, weird, rebellious roots. I have surgery scheduled for 2 weeks from tomorrow to hopefully get all fixed. This also forces me to rest and take care of myself, which I am very horrible at doing. Also because of this surgery, we have to take a 2-3 month break from trying to make a baby. Do I want a baby ASAP? Of course! But I was obsessing, thinking about it all the time and sex was way too scheduled to be fun or romantic. This break will be good for me, my metal health and my marriage. This summer, I plan to focus on getting back to who I am, healing my body and loving myself.