Spending (too much) Time With Myself

When schools closed in March, I was honestly excited for a little bit of a break from dealing with discipline issues, working way too many extra hours, and the dumb politics of being at school. I was going to get on top of school work and house work and find time to exercise again. It was going to be a surprise gift time to save my sanity.

I have anxiety and depression and while a little time at home is good for my mental health....4 months now of COVID-19 Quarantine is way way too much. My husband has been working the whole time so while he has been at work I have just been at home with the pups. I have been taking a lot of naps, part of me thinks it's depression, the other part of me thinks it's just out of boredom.

Many days I find myself easily spiraling about different subjects: school, infertility, money, and endless random useless knowledge. Some days I question whether I need to up my anxiety meds or if it's just temporary during this situation. I just feel on edge and obsessive about everything.

One of the worst things is that this all feels endless. I tried having a routine and I was able to do it for a little while but after a while it was monotonous and wasn't stimulating enough. I've read books, watched movies and binged tv shows, I've done yard work and house projects, I've done crafts and gardened. I miss going to work, I miss having a real routine that involves going places and seeing people. I know everyone is going through this but I wish people in my state would just listen to the rules so we can start to get back to some semblance of normal. This is not good for my mental health.

My husband has been accumulating pictures that he calls "Champions of Quarantine"to document how I'm spending my time stuck in the house. Clearly, a lot of puppy cuddles.