My Brain May Be Overloading

As a teacher, I pride myself in being very organized, able to multitask and able to hold a lot of information in my brain but as this intro into IVF is making me feel quite dumb and a mess.

Lets start with getting an email about price before my pre IVF monitoring & tests appointment. $13,745. All due before they even order our meds. My mind began panicking. We have been saving money for years a little at a time just in case we needed IVF but we did not have enough to drop that big total all at once...and in a week. Thankfully, both of our families are helping us gather the costs to supplement what we've saved, but that conclusion was after I spent hours thinking of all the scenarios. Ultimately we got a personal loan promoted by the clinic that has no early pay off penalty just to get the money out to them so we can start and then pay it back in big chunks over the next few months.

Last week, we get to our appointment and my husband very easily does his part for analysis (117 Million! come on dude stop showing off!). Through all of my tests and ultrasounds, they found a polyp in my uterus that will be removed during egg retrieval and on CD 11, my ovaries didn't have a lead follicle to predict ovulation so I had to come back a few days later.....so date setting is on hold again.

Yesterday I went back and thankfully I had one nice 18mm follicle so we could finally set a start and tentative timeline. This morning I received my calendar and meds order and oooooooeeeeeee, am I still process all the things I will have to keep track of.

Starting next Thursday, I will wear an estrogen patch until my period starts and we begin Stims. After Christmas, I will bring in all my meds and have an appointment with the nurse to learn everything I need to know about administering the 50000 million meds I have to take (I mean, you know I'm exaggerating right?). But then it all begins!

I am trying to use my planner to keep track of when and where and how I need to do everything, but I'm afraid I will miss something or mess something up. How do people who are unorganized even begin to handle all this? I feel like I'm going a mile a minute and my brain can't keep up. But I have a feeling by the end of this I'll be able to handle anything.